“My awakening hurts, it’s gritty and raw. I want to quit everyday yet I feel driven to dig deeper, to heal, and then to share how I healed with the hope of encouraging the awakening in others.” (My IG)
I’m noticing more raw days lately, where the wounds that I’ve hidden away for so long are revealing themselves and I can see the feastering that has occurred in these untreated wounds. Small wounds that if I had known how to treat them at the time would no longer be an issue but which have as a result of going untreated left a more profound impact on my heart and soul.
The shaming comments of my youth for example about my accent or about my skin color or hair color (they were particularly bad in high school locker rooms) were allowed to have more and more profound effects on my perception of the world. Although my mother tried her best, I didn’t seem to learn how to turn this shame into a positive self image and the raw feelings now come from the many years I spent living with a horrible sense of self worth. I hated myself for so many years because I didn’t learn that others had a right to their opinions and when those opinions …………………..
I imagine some of the people reading this have experienced their own raw feelings as they deeply reflect on their life. We would love to hear your raw feelings that you’ve experienced through your journey to heal your wounds.